Home Alone

So "The Boys" went to play paintball. I was going to go, but it's cold outside, and I'm not in shape enough to play yet. Actually I haven't worked out at all so far. I really need to find a way to motivate myself. I don't fit into my regular clothes yet.... Well, 1 pair I can wear with a muffin top..... But we won't even go there. It's hard with an infant in the house. Mason will be 6wks old on Wednesday. And I just can't believe it. It goes by so fast.
So I'm sitting here all by myself (the baby doesn't count until he can actually respond when I talk to him..) and thinking that I have no motivation at all. I have put off calling the Ponder people about my FAFSA for a week. Monday I WILL do that. I am going back to school. My big Dr. appointment is Tuesday! Maybe me and Jason can finally do the Deed again. He's excited. Me? I might be ambivalent. It depends on how I feel about him at any specific moment. I'm hoping that Valentine's Day (actually the day after) he will step it up and do something nice for me. Daddy-O is going to watch Mason for awhile. He isn't the romantic type in that sense. He might surprise me every once in a while with a CD, or something like that, but he doesn't do the romantic gestures. I've been dropping hints like crazy, that I want him to do something. Just us at the house, music on the radio (I even made a special playlist) Have a nice dinner, and maybe a massage..... But, like I said, he isn't really the romantic gesture type. I won't get my hopes up too high. Oh, well, I guess that's all I have to say....